I'm pretty sure I'm losing.
But in the meantime, Brit makes a very good point (I hate to admit) when he says he doesn't think I'm ready to be a mom. There are a lot of things I need to work on, so I'm going to start right now while I wait for him to come around. I could have a lot of time to work on these things......
- First, and most important I think, is my spirituality. Or at least, spiritual habits. As in, I don't have many good ones. I need to start making those habits NOW before I'm responsible for the teaching of a whole little person. Those things don't magically appear when the kid's a toddler and it's time to start enforcing nursery lessons.
- Brit's biggest gripe, and it is a problem, is my temper. I have one. I tend to get out-of-control angry and moody at little things. A lot of this I pin to the hormones in birth control, but I don't think that will get any better when I'm pregnant. Or going on 3 months straight of broken sleep. So I need to learn to control it now so it will be easier later, when Brit won't be nearly as calm and forgiving either.
- I noticed yesterday, as I went from playing World of Warcraft to reading to taking a nap, that I waste a lot of time in the day. Housework and productive things mostly go undone because I'm "tired and stressed" from work and school. And then I realized that when I have a baby, and am probably still working full time, it's only going to be a million times worse. So I'm trying to fill most of my hours between work and school with doing productive things, like keeping the apartment clean and actually making dinners, and limit my "down" time. I'm hoping this will train some of the inherent laziness out of me. And we're off to a good start, blogging about it first thing in the morning. :)