The best secret ever!

I have discovered the secret to losing weight. And it is (drumroll please)....... NOT going to the gym!

I've noticed a distinct pattern in my weight loss efforts. And that is, when I'm super good about working out, I lose VERY slowly. As in, maybe .5 lb / week. Then when I've been super lazy about going to the gym, like these past couple of weeks, I suddenly drop 1-3 lbs without even trying.

I know in my head it's muscle weight and all that crap, and I should remember that I will eventually look fabulous despite the numbers on the scale, but numbers on the scale are something you can SEE. I don't see myself looking fabulous at all. I see myself hardly able to walk I'm so sore, not having any time because the gym takes my whole morning, and NOT LOSING WEIGHT.

I probably should stop whining about it and just go to the gym. /sigh

A Room for Improvement

I guess it's no secret-- anybody who knows me at all should know I'm jonesing for a baby. Pretty much have been since I got married. But Brit is keeping me in check. Lately, we've had an ongoing--er, "discussion" about whether that should happen sooner or later.

I'm pretty sure I'm losing.

But in the meantime, Brit makes a very good point (I hate to admit) when he says he doesn't think I'm ready to be a mom. There are a lot of things I need to work on, so I'm going to start right now while I wait for him to come around. I could have a lot of time to work on these things......

• First, and most important I think, is my spirituality. Or at least, spiritual habits. As in, I don't have many good ones. I need to start making those habits NOW before I'm responsible for the teaching of a whole little person. Those things don't magically appear when the kid's a toddler and it's time to start enforcing nursery lessons.
• Brit's biggest gripe, and it is a problem, is my temper. I have one. I tend to get out-of-control angry and moody at little things. A lot of this I pin to the hormones in birth control, but I don't think that will get any better when I'm pregnant. Or going on 3 months straight of broken sleep. So I need to learn to control it now so it will be easier later, when Brit won't be nearly as calm and forgiving either.
  
• I noticed yesterday, as I went from playing World of Warcraft to reading to taking a nap, that I waste a lot of time in the day. Housework and productive things mostly go undone because I'm "tired and stressed" from work and school. And then I realized that when I have a baby, and am probably still working full time, it's only going to be a million times worse. So I'm trying to fill most of my hours between work and school with doing productive things, like keeping the apartment clean and actually making dinners, and limit my "down" time. I'm hoping this will train some of the inherent laziness out of me. And we're off to a good start, blogging about it first thing in the morning. :)

These are probably good habits to get into regardless, and it will keep my mind occupied with goals until it's time. And that makes the waiting seem not nearly so bad.

Just Some Things

Coming to you today from Jen's brand new computer! Isn't it spiffy? That's the stock picture at the top. And yes, it is sunshine yellow. It makes me happy. I finally decided it was time to retire my 5 year old laptop. It's still functional for web browsing and writing documents, and I'll probably sell it to my sister-in-law so she can use it until it dies, but it's nice to have a somewhat up-to-date machine in my hands again. I can actually play games! Not that I ever take time away from studying to play games...

School is still going well. It's hard getting back into it, remembering that I have assignments to do. My days are mostly filled with work and school and clinicals; today is one of my few days off. I started my clinicals yesterday-- it was boring. Nothing to report. Work is down to 3 days/week, and I've started bunching them all together so I work 6 days in a row and have 8 off. I've put in a request for time off at the end of the month... nothing that should interfere with my regular days off, I just thought it would be fun to have a long weekend and take a trip. I don't take enough trips. Brit disagrees, but I like them. It would be nice if I knew my schedule, though. Our supervisor has been getting it out..... well, maybe an hour in advance lately, it's been causing problems. I'll go in and talk to her today.

Well that was a lot of randomness that probably wasn't very interesting. Enjoy another picture of my awesome new computer: